February 2012
98 posts
Today Josh and I talked about Lucas…because the subject of friendship and suicide came up.
If I had one chance to talk to him one time, all I want to say is,
I’m sorry I couldn’t be there for you. I’m sorry for being such a selfish friend. I miss you so much.
Every time you come up in my mind, tears start falling.
And this is my punishment from you, is my forever...
F.A.Q.
IF I WERE A MONTH, I’D BE August. IF I WERE A DAY OF THE WEEK, I’D BE Saturday. IF I WERE A TIME OF DAY, I’D BE 11am. IF I WERE A PLANET, I’D BE Pluto. IF I WERE A SEA ANIMAL, I’D BE An Octopus. IF I WERE A DIRECTION, I’D BE North. IF I WERE A PIECE OF FURNITURE, I’D BE A Chandelier. IF I WERE A LIQUID, I’D BE Earl Grey tea. IF I WERE A GEMSTONE, I’D BE A Pearl. IF I WERE A TREE, I’D...
I fucking hate this throat thing.
And this no smoking thing.
And people not shutting the fuck up.
Worst time to bitch, honestly, I don’t care right now.
Worst state, cold turkey regarding cigarettes, I don’t give a fuck if people know more than me, honestly, I just want everyone to leave me alone.
I’m not a fucking kid, wow I got sick big fucking deal.
So does everyone...
Omgahh
I feel like shit!!
Early leave.
Why did I put my alarm at 7? The hell haha
This is why I don’t drink…I do stupid shit -_- like….cry and fall and drag myself around.
And then explode, with everything I’ve been holding in.
And wake up with a hangover!!!!
But I totally had a blast, and I got to know someone better.
And I admit, I really didn’t want Yo to leave when we got home.
And it...
I’ve been fighting with myself the last hour.
My room looks like crap.
It looks like two people have been wrestling with each other, but it was made from myself and someone I can call imaginary.
Call me crazy or not, but that’s what I’ve been doing, fighting with myself;’through loneliness.
I don’t care if it’s stupid.
But I have yelled, hit, punched,...
Today, I made new friends.
I have a sick feeling in my stomach.
And for some reason, I feel very anxious, and its making me feel nauseous.
Is this like, the side effects of being sober? Cauz if it is, it sucks.
I’m so used to pulling all nighters,
It became so normal to me.
I think that’s a bad sign hahaha.
Oh well at least I can tidy up before the boyfrannnn comes. :>
I’m excited haha. Even though I see him every week, it’s always so exciting every time it’s the day when he arrives.
It’s almost the same excitement as the night before a concert.
And...
For one more chance to hold you close;
And you’ve...
“An artist’s relation to his love life:
– An artist should avoid falling in...”
– Marina Abramovic (via boyhood)
UM……
I HEARD A THUNDER CRASH JUST NOW.
CAN I NOT GO TO WORK.
I’M FUCKING TERRIFIED OF THUNDER STORMS.
WTF. WHY IS THERE A THUNDER STORM AT 2 IN THE FRIKKING AFTERNOON??
UM……………………WHAT THE FRICK.
It’s 3am, I wonder where you are, And the...
I’m really hungry.
There’s no food.
I thought there was..but there isn’t.
I’m really high, which doesn’t help the hunger.
I don’t wanna go alone…. :[
I’m gunna drag Josh along.
This sucks balls.
Hella grumpy now.
